I honestly don't regret anything I've done and I won't because you should never regret anything that once made you smile and if I'm being completely honest if i had the chance to do it all over, I wouldn't change a damn thing I like the choices I've made some may have been stupid but at one point in time they made me happy and you should never regret your own happiness.
So I stopped procrastinating and cleaned my messy room, I don't know why but every time i clean my room i get this happy feeling like being accomplished. All I have to do now is laundry and I'll be set. Speaking of clothes I want at least two of Gage's hoodies so if you're seeing this babe get ready for me to steal your hoodies, love you.
Paper towns by John Green is the movie me and Gage went to see for our first date it was a really good movie and it was where we had our first kiss together. If you guys can't tell I really miss him right now and I'll probably post about him all night, so be prepared everyone. I'm going to describe him for you guys he's tall and white but looks like he's mixed with Mexican, with curly brown hair and brown eyes he has a clef lip but he had surgery on it in the 7th grade. Now picture me and him together. I'm a short brown skin black girl with curly hair and honey brown eyes and I'm curvy (thick) I also where glasses. My best friend Barbara says we look cute together. Anyways I miss Gage and I'll be ranting about him all night.
You really make me happy and I can't thank you enough for everything you've done. I love you and I really hope you know that because you need to know how much I appreciate you.
So I've finally been able to look at life in a different way. I'm still clinically depressed but I've learned that everything gets better and i have to make sure I'm here to see it. I love my life even the dumb decisions I've made because they make me the person I am and I'm happy with who I am. I have great friends and the best boyfriend i have a good head on my shoulders and i plan on making good decisions with it. To everyone that has done me wrong one person in particular who's name shall not be typed but I wish you the best i genuinely do i want no harm to come to you and i hope your life is filled with happiness and breathless moments, thank you for all the fantastic memories but goodbye and hello to my future.
SO starting to day I'm going to start eating healthy and to start working out a lot more i really need to stop being lazy and really push myself to reach my goals.
So I'm currently online shopping for football girlfriend hoodies and shirts for my baby Gage.
So my phone is broke and i won't get a new one till next week ugh,
I suffer from depression and I have an eating disorder. I feel so useless and i contemplate suicide on a daily basis. I dont think im going to make It to see my 16th birthday which is in october. Im fighting so hard but i can feel myself losing
So last week I asked Colton but everyone calls hom coco to homecoming he has down syndrome and I've known him and his entire family since I was in middle school because his brother Logan is my bestfriend. Homecoming is the 3rd of October and I already have it all planned I just need to find someone to take pictures and a place to eat and we'll be set.
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